Then I went to college and I remember thinking, "I don't want ANY kids. I want a bachelor's degree, a master's degree - I want to be capable of supporting myself."
And then somewhere in there life happened, and dreams were abandoned, new paths were taken and life got messy. Life has a way of getting people lost in the midst of circumstances, situations, and good and bad decisions.
Fortunately, there is a bigger plan, and all the mess really has a purpose.
As I was talking to a cousin here in Dallas, I experienced an epiphany like never before; the desires of my heart - from those high school and college days - each one has been met. In full. I HAVE a loving husband. I HAVE my children (granted, it is not five, and I certainly have more than none, but I have the kiddos I was intended to have). I HAVE a degree and can contribute to our family financially.
"He who did not spare His own son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?"
"Delight yourself in The Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart."